i really, really hate to blog about such downer moments but i’m hoping this will help me snap out of it. i don’t know what is bringing on this sudden need to just want to cry. the worst part about this is that i am holding back the tears cause it would be totally inappropriate for me to let them loose right now. if this is due to my fucking period, well then i really hate you. i have been purposefully secluding myself from everyone. i’m bored. i want something new and exciting. maybe i should move….

(please excuse the very randomness that is spilling out of my head, into my hands and onto your screen. yes i’m sure (hopeful) this is just a phase. maybe i will get something out of it?… yes that’s promising. a lesson waiting to be learned)

maybe if I can just go to sleep now, tomorrow will be better?

*fingers crossed*